1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY + LAUNCH

Hi my loves,

I honestly cannot contain my current excitement. Today my blog celebrates it’s one year anniversary!

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I cannot believe that it has been this long already. It has been the most incredible journey so far. With this, I want to thank all my readers, family and friends for their continuous love and support and for keeping me motivated throughout this journey. Blogging has become almost an extension of my life and thoughts. It has been a method for me to express myself on different levels, push myself creatively, and develop new relationships with many of my readers. It has helped me through the ups and downs of life, the good and the bad, the beautiful and the ugly, and of course, the thick and thin (literally and metaphorically 😉 ).

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Update: Acupunture, Meal Plans & Healthy Eating

Hey guys!

I know that it has been a while since my last proper written post, but here I am! I wanted to do a little update on what’s been going on lately, and the things that are planned for the future.

Firstly, a little update what has been going on health wise. The reason why I haven’t been uploading many things lately, quite frankly has been because I can’t. As I mentioned before, the issue with my hands and wrists has become a lot worse, and the terrible rainy Dutch weather hasn’t been helping! However, last week I went to see an MD + acupuncturist to see if she maybe had some ideas on what to do and how to manage with the pain. I was skeptical about acupuncture and wasn’t too convinced that I would see results, but hey, when you are desperate, you will try just about anything.

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Thanks For Making Me a Fighter

Hey my loves,

So I’m currently at the beach house, (by the time I post this I’ll be back home in civilization with internet, so bear with me). I know it is a long blog post for a change, but please bear with me, it is worth the read.

For the first time in years I’m relaxed. I don’t have anything to do, anyone to talk to, or any pressure on me. No university work or deadlines to worry about. Just me, myself and I. Admittedly, it hasn’t even been 24 hours, yet I’m already in a state of Zen. I think sometimes a person needs that. Away from technology and social pressure and to really be at peace. I’m not a spiritual person by any means, but I believe more strongly every year that it is important to take a step back from the technology high life. Who cares what your friends are posting on Instagram, or how many days are left until your acquaintance gives birth and shares it all on Facebook. Really, for once, just don’t care.

Enjoy some peace and quiet once in a while Read a book, walk on the beach, have a swim, eat with your family without your phone on the table. Cherish these moments.

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Managing with the diet

Hey my loves,

So the prospect of me living this type of lifestyle isn’t easy. To be completely honest, this whole start of summer hasn’t been easy yet. Thinking that you have had an illness for 8 years and dealing with it only to find out that you might not have it, is tough. It leaves you in a vulnerable place, in which you don’t know how to deal with the current situation.

Medical tests aren’t fun at any time, especially not in summer. I have yet to find out what is wrong with me. Even now, a week after my injection, I’m having a hard time writing down these notes on paper without screaming out in pain. Fair enough, life goes on, hopefully we will find a solution soon.

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My diet on the other hand, seems to be something for life. I have been doing my best for a while now; eating clean and exercising. I can’t say that I’ve seen a difference yet, but I’ll have to be patient. Continue reading » » » »

1000-1200 Calorie Diet

Hey my loves,

I just wanted to update you all on what the current situation is over here. So as I mentioned before, I’ve been doing some blood tests and other things to see what is up with my health. Just over 8 years ago I was diagnosed with having Carpal Tunnel Syndrome in both wrists, and Tarzal Tunnel Syndrome in both ankles. It was very unusual and uncommon for a child of 15 to be diagnosed with this, so the doctors figured that I might grow out of it and therefore would not need surgery. 8 years later, and I am still dealing with almost daily nerve pain in hands and feet to the point that sometimes I cannot pick up a pen or fork, let alone type. SOOOO, we figured, this summer it would be time to finally get the surgery, which takes around 10mins per hand, and just get it over and done with.

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Back in Business

Hey my loves,

I finally have some time again to start bringing some life back to my blog, it has been too long!

daily-motivation-25-photos-1719As previously mentioned, the reason why I was not able to blog much during the past 6 months was because I was in my final year of my degree. I had a massive dissertation project that was due in that took up most of my time. I am currently still waiting on the results of that, and of my exam too, so fingers crossed until that time! I have also accepted a University offer already, and I’m looking forward to a new start there. I will be studying Child & Adolescent Mental Health 🙂 It is exactly the route that I have always wanted to go down. Previously I always wanted to become a pediatrician, however that didn’t work out exactly as planned, hence me doing down the path of Psychology. Being able to work in a clinical setting with children, and having the opportunity to work with Great Ormond Street Hospital would be an absolute dream come true.

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Shall We Dance?

Hello my loves,

I’m so excited about today’s blog post! As I’ve previously mentioned, about 12 weeks ago I started a ballroom dancing course at Pineapple Dance Studios. I have the most fabulous teacher, Michael Litke, who with his professionalism and good humor has made this course an absolutely incredible experience.

My reasons for deciding on doing ballroom dancing are simple, yet complex. I guess to a certain extent you could say that I’ve been raised with a dancing background, my mom is a former ballet dancer and now owns and runs an incredible dance studio in Spain. Ballet was never my forte, and it will never be… it’s just not in me. I did however take jazz classes with pilates and participated in our bi-annual dance performance. Here I danced the Charleston, the chorus line, an adaptation from Hello Dolly, and Little Red Riding Hood. So the world of dance was sort of thrust upon me.

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I’m Still Alive!

Hey everybody,

I know I’ve been an absolutely terrible blogger lately and not uploading anything… I’m sorry!! Buuuut.. as I previously mentioned, I’m in my final two months of University (eeeek!) and working very hard on all of my deadlines.

Thankfully so far everything has been going incredibly well, and I’ve started applying to Universities for a Masters degree. I have already received one offer which I am incredibly proud of 🙂 fingers crossed for the others!

On that note, I do not have any big plans for summer except for seeing my family, so I plan to spend quite some time developing my blog and taking it to the next level. Additionally, I am working on a big secret project, which I cannot wait to reveal when it is completed!

I have a few exciting blog posts and ideas coming up soon (when I have to upload them..) one including a mega ballroom dancing post with the support of my wonderful teacher Michael Litke, view his website here. Ballroom has absolutely changed my life in a number of different ways, which I will be sharing with you soon. Additionally, my birthday is coming up (ahh… the big 23 already), and I’ve had a few ideas lined up for the food at my party. I can’t wait to get back in the kitchen soon to whip up some new ideas.

Finally, I’d like to wish all of my Jewish friends an incredible Passover. Chag sameach!

Lots of love,

Kim

Quick Update

Bonsoir!

I thought a quick update was necessary to show that I am still alive… It has been a while since I last updated my blog. To be completely honest and fair, I have been so busy the past few weeks with university work that I have had no time to upload anything. On top of that, I’ve been ill (again!), so I had absolutely no motivation to do anything.

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Kim Wagner Photography

Hello my lovelies,

I am very excited about bringing you guys this news 🙂 I have just launched a new site exclusively for my photography. I will not be writing any blog posts on there, and Love, Live, Life will remain exactly how it is now.

I hope to have the images speak for themselves. I didn’t feel that some of the things I photograph link in well with my lifestyle blog, hence me wanting to create a new page.

I hope you all like it!

XO Kim

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Let’s Get Sporty With Fanatics

Hello my lovelies,

This week I was up for challenging myself a little. I was inspired to create a ‘luxe sporty’ look with an NFL jersey from Fanatics Sports Apparel. A sports jersey is the perfect essential for creating a sport luxe look and should really be the base for your whole look. Personally, as I am Dutch, I don’t know much about the NFL and the SuperBowl, except for what entertainment there is going to be and what controversial commercials there have been. But, I did find this proposition really interesting to create a sporty look with a luxury feel to it. A lot of people feel uninspired or don’t know where to start when creating a look that is based on sports garments, but I hope to be able to give a few tips to you all.

Not all women want to be decked out in NFL gear with tracksuit bottoms, so I wanted to have a slightly more fashionable take on sports wear. I have previously worn a look with a sport jersey from Alexander Wang, which was a very relaxed look, but slightly more fashionable than your average sports wear. So inspired by this, I was happy to take on this new and exciting challenge!

Fanatics Look2As I mentioned, I don’t know much about the teams and the players… (Except for Tom Brady.. who doesn’t know who he is 😉 ) So as I browsed through the Fanatics website, my main goal was to find a jersey that I would wear regardless of the team. I looked at colour schemes and designs that I felt would be most flattering for women. I loved the look of this jersey not only because of its platinum colour, but because of the darker side panels that it features. As a woman with curves, the darker panels will slim you down, making the illusion of an hourglass figure.

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This Girl Can

Bonjour mes amis,

It’s that time again, normal routine is slowly coming back… Uni starts this week again, and work goes on. I have an insane drive when it comes to my professional life. I take pride in my work, I strive for perfection, and above all, I am dedicated. Yet this week I have found myself procrastinating in almost every aspect of my life… oh wait, I’ve been doing that for almost a month now…. Since coming back to London I’ve lost 1.5kg, solely from cutting out all the garbage I had been eating in Spain and Holland. Which is a great for getting back into things, yet that persistent drive in my head regarding weight loss, just simply hasn’t been there.

I had a conversation with a friend on Friday, and we talked about going to the gym and losing weight. It was not so subtly mentioned that I should really get my backside into gear and get cracking on this weight loss. I sprained my ankle again this week, and used it as another excuse for not working out. Sitting on the couch isn’t going to shrink that backside of mine… So maybe it was the harsh reality of somebody mentioning to me that I need to work on this, to get me in the right head space. I have all the means to get into shape, I have a goal – I bought the most gorgeous Graduation Gala dress. Long, blue, and figure hugging. The kind of dress, where if you lose 3kg or 5kg, you only look better in it. This should give me the drive and motivation to keep pushing myself to work harder than I am.

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Body Image- Participants Wanted :)

Hello my lovelies,

I hope everyone has finally been able to slightly go back to their normal routines and recovered from the food and drink comas of this festive season! Here in Spain we still have the Three Kings celebrations today, which means, major SALE tomorrow 😀 absolutely excited to face the battle zone in Zara. Last time I had to push a woman away because she was trying to rip a coat out of my hands! Hell nooo!

In the meantime I’ve been getting on with my normal routine again, which means working hard on my dissertation. I have a love/hate relationship with it. On the one hand, I absolutely adore the topic that I am doing, I love the work, yet it seems like so incredibly much to do. The topic I have chosen is focused around Body Image. All you all know, this is something that I hold dear to my heart, and is something that I feel needs more Psychological research. I am currently in my final year of University, doing a Psychology course. This final dissertation project weighs for the majority of my final grade. We were given pretty much free reign as to what we wanted to do, which is absolutely perfect. Although the actual percentage of diagnosed people with an Eating Disorder is quite low when looking at the world population, somehow we all seem to know someone who struggles with their body image and suffers from body dissatisfaction. With this research project I am trying to find a way to detect these issues at an earlier stage, which may aid in preventing the onset of the disorder.

I think I might have to make a desperate plea at the moment for participants. If you are able/willing to participate in my questionnaire, it would be greatly appreciated. You would have to be 18+, and I need both male and female participants. You would simply have to follow the instructions on the page. You can edit the PDF document, print it/scan it and send it back to me, or any other way 🙂 Please leave me your email address so I can send it to you.

Any and all help would be incredibly appreciated 🙂

XO Kim

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The Stone Cold Truth

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Hello lovelies,

I feel like I seem to be apologizing a lot lately for my lack of posting… It’s not that I don’t want to blog, I just haven’t had anything really significant to share lately (yes, I really am that boring at times). I’m reporting live from sunny garden in Spain right now, with my dog Nana trying to hang on to my arm and cuddle me at the same time, whilst claiming her space of my laptop keyboard… it’s good to be home 🙂

Processed with VSCOcam with a6 presetSo far it’s been a beautiful start to the new year. I spent my morning outside with a breakfast smoothie in the sun, what more could a girl want?! Since being a bit more settled in at home now, I guess it was time to face stone-cold reality, and get working on my New Years Resolutions… I’ve set myself the goal of losing 10kg this year, which is something that is realistically easy to do since I’ve done it before. Then I stood on the scale. I have now changed this resolution to 15kg….. (I might have a little cry now behind my Valentino sunglasses….)

We all might gain a little weight during the festive season, and there is nothing wrong with that. How can anyone say no to my Grandmother? ‘No’ doesn’t exist in her vocabulary when it comes down to food. I did enjoy myself though 🙂 However, when I stood on the scale this morning, I did get the shock of my life. I knew i had gained weight since the exam period at University and over the Christmas holidays, but not to this extent. I got faced with the cruel reality of a figure on the scale. A cruel reality that I had caused to myself. According to my BMI, I am not morbidly obese… Hows that for a new year? I don’t always believe in figures such as that, it is about proportions. But in this case… I can’t argue too much.

Not all hope is lost. I have to start from scratch again, it is a new year, a new start (I’m not going to say ‘new me’, that is too cliché) but I do have to get my butt into gear and get on with my weightloss progress. I think being in Spain for a bit now will also help me kickstart it. The fruit and vegetables here are so amazing and delicious, it pushes you to eat it. Also, I don’t have to go far for fruit, a casual stroll down to the garden and we have oranges, mangos, clementines, avocados, grapefruit, lemons, bananas.. and it goes on and on. I am incredibly fortunate to have that, and should absolutely take advantage of it. This morning I made a quick breakfast smoothie with Apple, Pear, Grapefruit, ice cubes, and Chia seeds. It takes 10 minutes to make, and is an incredible kickstart to your day.

10887404_10153505009654937_1263170806978432158_oAdditionally, I need to get exercising again. At the moment I can’t do any walking as my foot is still badly sprained, but that is no excuse for not doing core exercises. I will make it my priority to do situps every day, squats, and other simple core exercises that I can do in the comfort of my house. Hopefully soon I will be able to swim too again as well as doing Pilates at my moms dance studio.

I hope you all had an amazing New Year’s party, and have made some great resolutions. Please do share them! 🙂

XO Kim

I’m Baaaacckkkk

Hey everybody

I’m baaackkk 🙂 It feels like forever since my last proper blog post! I do apologize! As I’ve mentioned before, I was so swamped with Uni work and exams, and on top of that being ill for almost 3 weeks… not very happy times. Fortunately I have holiday now, and I’m a bit more rested and ready to get back to work.

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After a quick pit-stop in Spain, I am now in Holland to celebrate the holidays with my Dutch relatives. Although I should keep up with my diet, the festive food is already tempting me too much. All the chocolate in the supermarkets… ahh… heaven… On the subject of food, I have some great ideas for a desert that I’m dying to try out  in the next few days, but I will keep it a little bit of a surprise until I make it 😀 If all goes to plan, it should look beautiful.

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I’m trying to think of all the things that have happened over the past few weeks that I still wanted to share, its been a crazy ride, where to start. Perhaps with one of the most exciting things for me personally… I got a message on Instagram from one of my favorite designers!!! Dutch designer Mart Visser! I am blessed enough to be able to own quite a number of pieces from his collections ranging from coats, dresses, jumpers and jeans. They are all such sophisticated and effortlessly chic feminine pieces, and I feel absolutely humbled that he would take the time to send me a message.

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On the exercise front, we had a really cool Krav Maga class, where I was given the opportunity to do some photography. We were all asked to wear black long sleeved tops for a knife defense class. The knifes were dipped into chalk so we could clearly see what our weak defense points are. Lets just say.. this exercise just highlighted how much we sucked haha If the exercise was real, I would have a decapitated chest and a Jaime Lanister hand… and my sister would have all her guts removed out of her stomach 😛 It was a fun method to see in which areas we still need to work hard on.

10864829_853713551315941_1259508251_nI’m sure there are waaaay more things to mention, but as it is late at night, I’m having a mind-block as to what else to mention. I do however have a lot more time now to focus on the blog and bring some new and exciting things 🙂

For my Jewish crew out there, I’d already like to wish you all a great Chanukkah which starts tomorrow evening. Chag Sameach!

XO Kim

Weight-loss Progress

Hello lovelies,

I wanted to do another weight-loss progress update, however, one showing my progress over a year. I have to admit 100%, I am terrified about doing this… I find that we usually get caught up in the moment, and never quite look at how far we have actually come in life. As I was casually browsing through some of my old photos, feeling nostalgic, I came across some photos from my 21st birthday. It came as quite a shock looking at the pictures… I knew I was big, but looking at those images, it finally sunk in. It has made me question how I ever got to that stage.. how did I possibly let myself? Has my vision been that distorted for so long? Do I need to invest in some jam-jar strength glasses? I think that subconsciously I knew at that point that I was too heavy, how could I not?.. but I don’t think I ever realized how out of control and unhealthy this was.

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People always say that you should never regret anything in life, and that every experience is something that you can learn from. I agree with this to a certain extent. I hardly regret anything in my life at all, I do however regret letting myself get to that stage regarding my weight. I am a person with incredible will-power in my professional life.. I am a hard-worker, dedicated, and most of all, I always have a strong drive to complete any task that I start. Yet somehow, I have never had that drive with regards to my weight. It is strange coming to that realization. In the back of your mind, you know you are damaging your body with every bite of cheesecake, cookies and cake that you take, yet we still do it… Food is an easy source of comfort, I for one know that like no other. During every hard time that I have gone through, I turn to food as my savior. My collection of photographs each reflect the stages of my life during things that I went through, and my weight will indicate whether it was a good or bad time. It is scary to think that you basically turn yourself into an addict, and food is your drug. Something that is legal, your essential need for survival, yet it has the power to kill you. Now the question is, how do you recover from that drug addiction?

You could essentially go cold-turkey. Cutting everything out from one day to the next. I’ve tried this… it does not work unless you are in the right mindset. I suppose it is the same as with any addiction, you firstly really need to want to change. You can say that you want to lose weight and be healthy, but if your mind isn’t with it, and is just not going to happen. Perhaps this was the case with me, or maybe I just needed someone to give me a kick up the backside and point out to me how I was essentially killing myself slowly with poison. Perhaps I had the do the kicking. I think this is the case for me now. I am not losing weight for someone else, I am not trying to impress anyone else with my figure, I am not doing it for a boyfriend, or my best girl friends… no. I am doing it, for me. At the end of the day, you get one body, one life, and it is up to you to decide how you are going to live that life. Are you going to keep looking in the mirror and be miserable? Or do you give yourself a kick and say, hey, I need to make myself happy first.

I am done with being unhappy. I has finally sunk in. I am still young, and I am blessed with the fact that I lose weight incredibly quickly. The only thing I need to match that with is will-power. It is now or never. If I don’t get my act together now, I will never do it. The older you get, the harder it is to lose weight. So for the past few weeks I have really been watching what I am eating, stepped up my exercise routine, introduced Krav Maga into my life, and it has made an incredible difference. I have lost a lot of weight already, and I’ll dare to say that it is around 5kg now since the beginning of summer. However, looking in the mirror everyday, you don’t realize how far you have come. You look at yourself everyday, yet it is hard to see the change. I think that this is the reason why I photograph myself regularly. I am not trying to be vein with my ‘selfies’ (unless I look really good 😉 ) it is a way of marking your progress throughout your weight-loss process. You know what they say, a picture speaks a thousand words, and needless to say… I think this is true in my case with this image.

The first image: me on my 21st birthday, a year ago in April. The second image: me a few weeks ago. I think I needed this as a reminder of why I am doing it, and why I should continue. I guess this is my kick up the backside, and a gentle reminder of how far I have come already. I am nowhere near to where I want to be, but I have made the start. I am looking and feeling better, and after compiling these images together, it has given me the drive and motivation back to keep going. I have taken my pink glasses off, and looked at reality. This is me. This is my body, and this is my life. You have to take matters into your own hands, because nobody else will do it for you.

If you have been through a similar process, please do let me know, I am so curious about the stories behind my readers 🙂

XO Kim

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Hey-Ho, Hey-Ho, Off To Krav We Go

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Yesterday we had a pretty intense Krav Maga session. It was all about strangling… sounds fun doesn’t it. We were learning all about how to get yourself out of being choked, how to beat the person up after, and then put them into a strangling position. One that they can’t get out of…  I’m going to try to soon upload a better explanation of these methods with images, and describe a little what each one is used for. As I’ve already said before, I think it is essential that all women, and of course men too, learn some form of self-defense. It sounds harsh, but unfortunately we live in a cruel world… you never know if something might happen to you. Why not be prepared for anything that life can throw at you? Learning self-defense gives you confidence, you feel empowered after each class, and knowing how to defend yourself might safe your life one day. Of course we all hope that you will never need to use these skills, but if you ever do, it’s best to learn how to do them properly and effectively.

XO Kim