I adore these photos for the simple fact that they haven’t been edited. It was one of the most gorgeous days in Spain. The lighting was perfect, the sky was clear and the sea was calm. Every time I look at these photos, it makes me miss home, and makes me realize how absolutely blessed I am to have such a gorgeous garden to our home. There is something so relaxing and refreshing about the ocean and the beach, it always makes me feel like I am on holiday.
I wanted to do another weight-loss progress update, however, one showing my progress over a year. I have to admit 100%, I am terrified about doing this… I find that we usually get caught up in the moment, and never quite look at how far we have actually come in life. As I was casually browsing through some of my old photos, feeling nostalgic, I came across some photos from my 21st birthday. It came as quite a shock looking at the pictures… I knew I was big, but looking at those images, it finally sunk in. It has made me question how I ever got to that stage.. how did I possibly let myself? Has my vision been that distorted for so long? Do I need to invest in some jam-jar strength glasses? I think that subconsciously I knew at that point that I was too heavy, how could I not?.. but I don’t think I ever realized how out of control and unhealthy this was.
People always say that you should never regret anything in life, and that every experience is something that you can learn from. I agree with this to a certain extent. I hardly regret anything in my life at all, I do however regret letting myself get to that stage regarding my weight. I am a person with incredible will-power in my professional life.. I am a hard-worker, dedicated, and most of all, I always have a strong drive to complete any task that I start. Yet somehow, I have never had that drive with regards to my weight. It is strange coming to that realization. In the back of your mind, you know you are damaging your body with every bite of cheesecake, cookies and cake that you take, yet we still do it… Food is an easy source of comfort, I for one know that like no other. During every hard time that I have gone through, I turn to food as my savior. My collection of photographs each reflect the stages of my life during things that I went through, and my weight will indicate whether it was a good or bad time. It is scary to think that you basically turn yourself into an addict, and food is your drug. Something that is legal, your essential need for survival, yet it has the power to kill you. Now the question is, how do you recover from that drug addiction?
You could essentially go cold-turkey. Cutting everything out from one day to the next. I’ve tried this… it does not work unless you are in the right mindset. I suppose it is the same as with any addiction, you firstly really need to want to change. You can say that you want to lose weight and be healthy, but if your mind isn’t with it, and is just not going to happen. Perhaps this was the case with me, or maybe I just needed someone to give me a kick up the backside and point out to me how I was essentially killing myself slowly with poison. Perhaps I had the do the kicking. I think this is the case for me now. I am not losing weight for someone else, I am not trying to impress anyone else with my figure, I am not doing it for a boyfriend, or my best girl friends… no. I am doing it, for me. At the end of the day, you get one body, one life, and it is up to you to decide how you are going to live that life. Are you going to keep looking in the mirror and be miserable? Or do you give yourself a kick and say, hey, I need to make myself happy first.
I am done with being unhappy. I has finally sunk in. I am still young, and I am blessed with the fact that I lose weight incredibly quickly. The only thing I need to match that with is will-power. It is now or never. If I don’t get my act together now, I will never do it. The older you get, the harder it is to lose weight. So for the past few weeks I have really been watching what I am eating, stepped up my exercise routine, introduced Krav Maga into my life, and it has made an incredible difference. I have lost a lot of weight already, and I’ll dare to say that it is around 5kg now since the beginning of summer. However, looking in the mirror everyday, you don’t realize how far you have come. You look at yourself everyday, yet it is hard to see the change. I think that this is the reason why I photograph myself regularly. I am not trying to be vein with my ‘selfies’ (unless I look really good 😉 ) it is a way of marking your progress throughout your weight-loss process. You know what they say, a picture speaks a thousand words, and needless to say… I think this is true in my case with this image.
The first image: me on my 21st birthday, a year ago in April. The second image: me a few weeks ago. I think I needed this as a reminder of why I am doing it, and why I should continue. I guess this is my kick up the backside, and a gentle reminder of how far I have come already. I am nowhere near to where I want to be, but I have made the start. I am looking and feeling better, and after compiling these images together, it has given me the drive and motivation back to keep going. I have taken my pink glasses off, and looked at reality. This is me. This is my body, and this is my life. You have to take matters into your own hands, because nobody else will do it for you.
If you have been through a similar process, please do let me know, I am so curious about the stories behind my readers 🙂
Hello there my lovelies,
I apologize for my lack of posting interesting stuff lately, I’ve been a little busy. I am still first and foremost a University student, and as much as I love, love, love, working on my blog and spending hours in the kitchen creating new things and then photographing them, I have simply not had the time lately. I’m nearing to the end of the year now, with about 2 1/2 weeks left to go until I break up for holiday, so of course, all my uni deadlines are set around this time. Fortunately, the end is near, and then I will finally be able to have a little bit of a breather again and see my family again.
Although my family doesn’t celebrate Christmas, (I am Jewish), and I highly doubt we will be celebrating Chanukah properly this year, we still always make the time to get the family together for a nice meal. As you all know, food excites me, and I absolutely cannot wait to try some new things out to show the family. I am a HUGE Masterchef Australia fan, and watching a few of the master-classes on there has given me a few incredible ideas for the dinner. Additionally, cookbooks… ahhhh, what would I do without them!! Thankfully we have a beautiful library right outside my house, so I’ll be popping around there soon to see what they have to offer.
UPDATE: I went to the library and picked up some beautiful items. Of course I had to pick up a French cookbook – Michel Roux – The Essence of French Cooking. Unfortunately the Michel Roux Jr. book that I was looking for wasn’t available today 😦 I absolutely love that man! Additionally I got a Gluten-Free book which has already given me a few great ideas to try out for my sister, then I ran into a Dutch & Belgian cookbook which made me giggle. It’s so nice to have that little bit of home right with me here, just looking at all the recipes made me realize how much I do actually miss Holland.
For the rest of the afternoon, I had the luxury to stay home (whilst it was raining), cuddled up under a blanket with some coffee, and watched Sabrina. I felt like I needed a little bit of Hollywood glamour in my life today. Let’s be honest, it doesn’t really get more glamorous than Audrey Hepburn in that gorgeous Givenchy dress. Her timeless elegance and beauty always makes me wish I was born in that time. The romance, men who are actual gentlemen, and women who still have self-respect. Not to make this sound like a rant, but I really do wish people were a little bit more classy nowadays, chivalry shouldn’t be dead. I believe that women such as Audrey Hepburn, Grace Kelly and Marilyn Monroe will be timeless inspirational women, and perhaps more women should aspire to in a way be more like that. Now obviously we cannot parade around in a ballgown all day, that is not what I mean, but the class and self-respect, intelligence and inner beauty they exude is something that will in essence always be more sexy than an easy woman. Look at our current timeless inspirational women: Angelina Jolie, Blake Lively, Leighton Meester, Michelle Obama, Kate Middleton, Nathalie Portman, Doutzen Kroes and Emma Watson. All of these women are strong, independent, classy and intelligent women, and all should be an inspiration to women over the world.
To get you in a romantic Friday night mood: