Thanks For Making Me a Fighter

Hey my loves,

So I’m currently at the beach house, (by the time I post this I’ll be back home in civilization with internet, so bear with me). I know it is a long blog post for a change, but please bear with me, it is worth the read.

For the first time in years I’m relaxed. I don’t have anything to do, anyone to talk to, or any pressure on me. No university work or deadlines to worry about. Just me, myself and I. Admittedly, it hasn’t even been 24 hours, yet I’m already in a state of Zen. I think sometimes a person needs that. Away from technology and social pressure and to really be at peace. I’m not a spiritual person by any means, but I believe more strongly every year that it is important to take a step back from the technology high life. Who cares what your friends are posting on Instagram, or how many days are left until your acquaintance gives birth and shares it all on Facebook. Really, for once, just don’t care.

Enjoy some peace and quiet once in a while Read a book, walk on the beach, have a swim, eat with your family without your phone on the table. Cherish these moments.

20For me, I decided to go to the beach house for real peace and to clear my head. Continue reading » » » »

I’m Baaaacckkkk

Hey everybody

I’m baaackkk 🙂 It feels like forever since my last proper blog post! I do apologize! As I’ve mentioned before, I was so swamped with Uni work and exams, and on top of that being ill for almost 3 weeks… not very happy times. Fortunately I have holiday now, and I’m a bit more rested and ready to get back to work.

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After a quick pit-stop in Spain, I am now in Holland to celebrate the holidays with my Dutch relatives. Although I should keep up with my diet, the festive food is already tempting me too much. All the chocolate in the supermarkets… ahh… heaven… On the subject of food, I have some great ideas for a desert that I’m dying to try out  in the next few days, but I will keep it a little bit of a surprise until I make it 😀 If all goes to plan, it should look beautiful.

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I’m trying to think of all the things that have happened over the past few weeks that I still wanted to share, its been a crazy ride, where to start. Perhaps with one of the most exciting things for me personally… I got a message on Instagram from one of my favorite designers!!! Dutch designer Mart Visser! I am blessed enough to be able to own quite a number of pieces from his collections ranging from coats, dresses, jumpers and jeans. They are all such sophisticated and effortlessly chic feminine pieces, and I feel absolutely humbled that he would take the time to send me a message.

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On the exercise front, we had a really cool Krav Maga class, where I was given the opportunity to do some photography. We were all asked to wear black long sleeved tops for a knife defense class. The knifes were dipped into chalk so we could clearly see what our weak defense points are. Lets just say.. this exercise just highlighted how much we sucked haha If the exercise was real, I would have a decapitated chest and a Jaime Lanister hand… and my sister would have all her guts removed out of her stomach 😛 It was a fun method to see in which areas we still need to work hard on.

10864829_853713551315941_1259508251_nI’m sure there are waaaay more things to mention, but as it is late at night, I’m having a mind-block as to what else to mention. I do however have a lot more time now to focus on the blog and bring some new and exciting things 🙂

For my Jewish crew out there, I’d already like to wish you all a great Chanukkah which starts tomorrow evening. Chag Sameach!

XO Kim

Weight-loss Progress

Hello lovelies,

I wanted to do another weight-loss progress update, however, one showing my progress over a year. I have to admit 100%, I am terrified about doing this… I find that we usually get caught up in the moment, and never quite look at how far we have actually come in life. As I was casually browsing through some of my old photos, feeling nostalgic, I came across some photos from my 21st birthday. It came as quite a shock looking at the pictures… I knew I was big, but looking at those images, it finally sunk in. It has made me question how I ever got to that stage.. how did I possibly let myself? Has my vision been that distorted for so long? Do I need to invest in some jam-jar strength glasses? I think that subconsciously I knew at that point that I was too heavy, how could I not?.. but I don’t think I ever realized how out of control and unhealthy this was.

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People always say that you should never regret anything in life, and that every experience is something that you can learn from. I agree with this to a certain extent. I hardly regret anything in my life at all, I do however regret letting myself get to that stage regarding my weight. I am a person with incredible will-power in my professional life.. I am a hard-worker, dedicated, and most of all, I always have a strong drive to complete any task that I start. Yet somehow, I have never had that drive with regards to my weight. It is strange coming to that realization. In the back of your mind, you know you are damaging your body with every bite of cheesecake, cookies and cake that you take, yet we still do it… Food is an easy source of comfort, I for one know that like no other. During every hard time that I have gone through, I turn to food as my savior. My collection of photographs each reflect the stages of my life during things that I went through, and my weight will indicate whether it was a good or bad time. It is scary to think that you basically turn yourself into an addict, and food is your drug. Something that is legal, your essential need for survival, yet it has the power to kill you. Now the question is, how do you recover from that drug addiction?

You could essentially go cold-turkey. Cutting everything out from one day to the next. I’ve tried this… it does not work unless you are in the right mindset. I suppose it is the same as with any addiction, you firstly really need to want to change. You can say that you want to lose weight and be healthy, but if your mind isn’t with it, and is just not going to happen. Perhaps this was the case with me, or maybe I just needed someone to give me a kick up the backside and point out to me how I was essentially killing myself slowly with poison. Perhaps I had the do the kicking. I think this is the case for me now. I am not losing weight for someone else, I am not trying to impress anyone else with my figure, I am not doing it for a boyfriend, or my best girl friends… no. I am doing it, for me. At the end of the day, you get one body, one life, and it is up to you to decide how you are going to live that life. Are you going to keep looking in the mirror and be miserable? Or do you give yourself a kick and say, hey, I need to make myself happy first.

I am done with being unhappy. I has finally sunk in. I am still young, and I am blessed with the fact that I lose weight incredibly quickly. The only thing I need to match that with is will-power. It is now or never. If I don’t get my act together now, I will never do it. The older you get, the harder it is to lose weight. So for the past few weeks I have really been watching what I am eating, stepped up my exercise routine, introduced Krav Maga into my life, and it has made an incredible difference. I have lost a lot of weight already, and I’ll dare to say that it is around 5kg now since the beginning of summer. However, looking in the mirror everyday, you don’t realize how far you have come. You look at yourself everyday, yet it is hard to see the change. I think that this is the reason why I photograph myself regularly. I am not trying to be vein with my ‘selfies’ (unless I look really good 😉 ) it is a way of marking your progress throughout your weight-loss process. You know what they say, a picture speaks a thousand words, and needless to say… I think this is true in my case with this image.

The first image: me on my 21st birthday, a year ago in April. The second image: me a few weeks ago. I think I needed this as a reminder of why I am doing it, and why I should continue. I guess this is my kick up the backside, and a gentle reminder of how far I have come already. I am nowhere near to where I want to be, but I have made the start. I am looking and feeling better, and after compiling these images together, it has given me the drive and motivation back to keep going. I have taken my pink glasses off, and looked at reality. This is me. This is my body, and this is my life. You have to take matters into your own hands, because nobody else will do it for you.

If you have been through a similar process, please do let me know, I am so curious about the stories behind my readers 🙂

XO Kim

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Hey-Ho, Hey-Ho, Off To Krav We Go

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Yesterday we had a pretty intense Krav Maga session. It was all about strangling… sounds fun doesn’t it. We were learning all about how to get yourself out of being choked, how to beat the person up after, and then put them into a strangling position. One that they can’t get out of…  I’m going to try to soon upload a better explanation of these methods with images, and describe a little what each one is used for. As I’ve already said before, I think it is essential that all women, and of course men too, learn some form of self-defense. It sounds harsh, but unfortunately we live in a cruel world… you never know if something might happen to you. Why not be prepared for anything that life can throw at you? Learning self-defense gives you confidence, you feel empowered after each class, and knowing how to defend yourself might safe your life one day. Of course we all hope that you will never need to use these skills, but if you ever do, it’s best to learn how to do them properly and effectively.

XO Kim

November Motivation

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Happy November everybody 😉 Sorry for those of you that are getting confused about the look of my website. I am playing around with different layouts until I find the right one. I prefer the manageability of this template more than my previous one.

Also, since it is November now, everyone seems to be giving up something or setting a certain goal. Today is the first official day of my “diet” again. Yes, I have to admit, I used Halloween as an excuse to eat as much candy as we had in the house… and no, there were no trick-or-treaters that came by… Hence, we ate all the candy… So as of this morning, I’m back to eating healthy again, cut out all refined sugar (I’m sure the crankiness will set in by tomorrow), and I am doing my daily exercises again. I will keep you all updated later this week with an eating plan, as well as the exercises that I do at home. They don’t require much time, but is the perfect way to continue to tone up at home.

XO Kim